I have been overweight since I was about 10 years old. At least that is how far back I remember. This has been an issue for me. Not only because I was teased for being the fat girl, but because emotionally I was a real mess. Feeling like an outcast, but wanting so badly to fit in, I tried several different diets with little or no success rate.

As a young Christian I struggled with my identity in Christ. I felt His love, but I never knew how to accept it. I was torn, but wanted so much to cling to my one true relationship [with Him] that wasn't spiraling out of control. You see my father had been out of the picture for so long that I desired this attention whether it was negative or positive.

This behavior of dieting and wanting to look good [and fill that void] went on for years, but after High School I lost about 50 lbs and began getting attention...the wrong attention. I didn't care though. I felt high like I was finally being treated as an equal. My adult friends were now inviting me to parties and out just to let loose and have fun. I had guys interested in me and I just could not get enough of the attention...

Luke 7:47-48
Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven—for she loved much. But he who has been forgiven little loves little." Then Jesus said to her, "Your sins are forgiven."

To be continued...